Stages.

It's ok
Everything will be fine
I just can't believe this is real

He's too young!
This wasn't supposed to happen!
Give me answers!

If only I could turn back time...
I would give anything to get answers...
If I could just say one more thing to him...

He'll never see his future
He left so much behind
I will always miss him

He is in peace now
He will never suffer again
We'll see him on the other side


Dedicated to Lee Stassen.

As I lie with my headphones blaring
I focus on nothing
Nothing but the words
The drums
The guitar
The beautiful harmonies
I am a part of it
I am a part of everything I hear
I step out of my body
I reach my arms out
I try to grab whatever might be there
My eyes are closed
I touch something
I'm touching the music
Music itself in my hands
It's heavy but weightless
Blinding me in darkness
The beat of the song matches the beat of my heart
I love it
I bathe in it
I live it
It is mine
And only mine
It belongs to me
It's too abstract for others
One thing I can do
I'll break a piece off
It will grow forever
If you understand me,
It's yours.

My Favorite Songs (There are many)

Music is my favorite thing in the world, so naturally, I have many favorite songs. Here's some of them. These are in no particular order.

Little Wing by Stevie Ray Vaughan
In The Air Tonight by Phil Collins
Dark Was The Night, Cold Was The Ground by Blind Willie Johnson
Apology by Alesana
Those Cannons Could Sink A Ship by A Skylit Drive
If You Can't Ride Two Horses At Once, You Should Get Out Of The Circus by Asking Alexandria
Take On Me by A-Ha
Sidewinder by Avenged Sevenfold
Down by Blink 182
The Birds And The Bees by Breathe Carolina
Spit You Out by Bullet For My Valentine*
No Blood, No Foul by Burden Of A Day
Going The Distance by Cake
The Red by Chevelle
One Day Women Will All Become Monsters by Chiodos*
The Difference Between Medicine And Poison Is In The Dose by Circa Survive
Louder Than Thunder by The Devil Wears Prada
Inside The Fire by Disturbed
The End by The Doors
The Guillotine by Escape The Fate
Good Enough by Evanescence*
F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X. by The Fall Of Troy
Dance Dance by Fall Out Boy
Dance Or Die by Family Force 5
Jenny by Flight Of The Conchords
Cassie by Flyleaf*
Everlong by Foo Fighters
Emily by From First To Last
El Mañana by Goillaz*
Niki FM by Hawthorne Heights
Things That Rhyme With Orange by I Set My Friends On Fire
Such Great Heights by Iron And Wine
Holy Diver by Killswitch Engage
Tearjerker by Korn
Going To California by Led Zeppelin
H! Vltg3 by Linkin Park
Miserable At Best by Mayday Parade
Fade To Black by Metallica
Billie Jean by Michael Jackson
Float On by Modest Mouse
Knights Of Cydonia by Muse
Helena by My Chemical Romance
Dumb by Nirvana*
But It's Better If You Do by Panic At The Disco*
The Only Exception by Paramore
Yellow Ledbetter by Pearl Jam
Judith by A Perfect Circle
The Trial by Pink Floyd
Creep by Radiohead
Snow by Red Hot Chili Peppers
The Grim Goodbye by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
My Darkest Hour by Scary Kids Scaring Kids
Your Call by Secondhand Serenade
Cheyenne by Settle The Sky
Vermilion Part 2 by Slipknot
Devil by Staind*
Half The Man I Used To Be by Stone Temple Pilots
Prison Song by System Of A Down*
Ghost Man On Third by Taking Back Sunday
H. by Tool*
I'm A Fake by The Used*
Sweater Song by Weezer
Fell In Love With A Girl (Acoustic) by The White Stripes
Hide And Seek by Imogen Heap

*It was hard to choose a song by this band, because I like just about every song ever made by them.

When I was little

When I was little, I mixed up nickels and dimes.

When I was little, I stuck a fork in a light socket.

When I was little, I was afraid of balloons.

When I was little, I mixed up my shoulders and elbows.

When I was little, I thought my dad could lift a car above his head.

When I was little, I wanted to be a cowboy.

When I was little, I loved country music.

When I was little, I was afraid of heights.

When I was little, my PlayStation was my most prized possession.

When I was little, all my friends thought I would be a scientist.

When I was little, my favorite color was turquoise.

When I was little, I thought a guy couldn't marry a girl older than himself.

When I was little, I was jealous of the kids who could name all 150 Pokemon. I still am.

When I was little, I thought I didn't have an imagination.

Decisions.

I've recently decided that my last words will be "rosebud".

I've recently decided to major in Communication Arts and Literature.

I've recently decided to stop listening to Nickelback.

I've recently decided to stop hating.

I've recently decided to rake leaves around town for money.

I've recently decided to play more guitar.

I've recently decided that Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl, Dead Man's Chest, and At World's End are all really good movies.


Your turn.

Excuse me sir, I seem to have swallowed the Higgs Boson.

What do people like to read about on blogs?

I saw The Truman Show today. That's a great movie. Here's a list of other really good movies.


The Nightmare Before Christmas
Inception
The Shawshank Redemption
School of Rock
Hostel Part II
The Final
Across the Universe
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
Zombieland
Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children
Citizen Kane
The Lion King
Edward Scissorhands
Forrest Gump
The Matrix